On Meloxicam
Apr. 22nd, 2013 02:06 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lliiraI advise against taking it except for an extremely short period of time, like 2 days.
So here's what happened: I went to the pain doctor last month and he prescribed me a bunch of drugs. I took them. I was supposed to have another appointment with him two days ago, but I couldn't make it. I'm glad of that, because it meant I ran out of meloxicam. For the past month, my brain has been very, very slow. Communicating, especially verbally, has been horribly hard; I have felt zero drive to create; and I have been literally unable to decide things such as what to eat. Weirdest of all, though, was my mood. It was flat. I felt sort-of content-ish, but I didn't care much about anything, whether bad or good. And I didn't care that I didn't care. Further, my complete lack of ability to judge anything made me unable to compare how strange I was then with how I'd been before. I could tell my back hurt less and that I wasn't feeling like writing or doing anything else -- but since I didn't care that I didn't feel like doing anything, I didn't count it as much of a problem.
If I'd gone to the doctor a couple days ago, he would have refilled my meloxicam and I'd have kept taking it, not knowing there was a problem. Now I do. If it's the drug responsible for my having no cramps last month (the first time in 25 years of hellish cramps), then I will want it to take on the first day of my period and that's it. Yes, my back hurts quite a bit more without it. But I actually give a damn about life again, my brain is working again. I feel like I'm waking up from a month-long nightmare. Happily, meloxicam is not addictive, so I have no ill effects from stopping it cold turkey.
So here's what happened: I went to the pain doctor last month and he prescribed me a bunch of drugs. I took them. I was supposed to have another appointment with him two days ago, but I couldn't make it. I'm glad of that, because it meant I ran out of meloxicam. For the past month, my brain has been very, very slow. Communicating, especially verbally, has been horribly hard; I have felt zero drive to create; and I have been literally unable to decide things such as what to eat. Weirdest of all, though, was my mood. It was flat. I felt sort-of content-ish, but I didn't care much about anything, whether bad or good. And I didn't care that I didn't care. Further, my complete lack of ability to judge anything made me unable to compare how strange I was then with how I'd been before. I could tell my back hurt less and that I wasn't feeling like writing or doing anything else -- but since I didn't care that I didn't feel like doing anything, I didn't count it as much of a problem.
If I'd gone to the doctor a couple days ago, he would have refilled my meloxicam and I'd have kept taking it, not knowing there was a problem. Now I do. If it's the drug responsible for my having no cramps last month (the first time in 25 years of hellish cramps), then I will want it to take on the first day of my period and that's it. Yes, my back hurts quite a bit more without it. But I actually give a damn about life again, my brain is working again. I feel like I'm waking up from a month-long nightmare. Happily, meloxicam is not addictive, so I have no ill effects from stopping it cold turkey.
