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Jul. 15th, 2017 08:32 amHi! I'm doing much better than when I last posted. I'm doing much better than when I FIRST posted. I'm back to who I used to be in a lot of ways, and that's someone some of you have never known so, uh yeah hi. It's been years. Because of this:
I finally got fully through kicking that (100% legal and pushed as the solution to my problems, the motherfuckers) shit last year.
Then the election came and I went kersplat for months. While Trump winning shook me, that wasn't what knocked me flat. When I saw the way so many people supposedly "on my side" reacted, I dove head-first into cracking the echo chamber I'd been stuck in wide open. I've never done well, emotionally, in echo chambers. Cliques give me a rash. I've always had friends who didn't like each other. So that helped.
But what finally pushed my head back up above water was getting more dietary fat, particularly dairy fat. I have not had this much energy since my 20s. Kind of a problem, since my body is still a wreck in many ways -- I can't even walk around the block without severe pain, let alone run around it. It's still great.
I finally got fully through kicking that (100% legal and pushed as the solution to my problems, the motherfuckers) shit last year.
Then the election came and I went kersplat for months. While Trump winning shook me, that wasn't what knocked me flat. When I saw the way so many people supposedly "on my side" reacted, I dove head-first into cracking the echo chamber I'd been stuck in wide open. I've never done well, emotionally, in echo chambers. Cliques give me a rash. I've always had friends who didn't like each other. So that helped.
But what finally pushed my head back up above water was getting more dietary fat, particularly dairy fat. I have not had this much energy since my 20s. Kind of a problem, since my body is still a wreck in many ways -- I can't even walk around the block without severe pain, let alone run around it. It's still great.
