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Aug. 30th, 2017 06:15 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lliiraNot having anxiety is weird.
I still worry about things. We're moving in mid-October and I'm stressed about that. But there has to be something 1) real and 2) that I can/have to do something about. My brain no longer searches for stuff to be anxious over. I can get mad over politics and then put it aside. I see everything from a much calmer and more rational perspective.
I no longer feel guilt for living in the modern United States instead of Saudi Arabia or 14th century Europe. Yes, I realized these were utterly silly things to feel guilt over, but that didn't help. That's gone. Guilt in general over things that other people did or didn't do has disappeared entirely. And now, I'm able to focus on what I can do, which means I'm going to be able to do way more.
I still can't get over that this change came solely from drinking full-fat milk. While everyone is different in many ways, I do not think I'm some strange alien being with a 100% unique physiology among woman. And I do wonder if the studies showing a rise in anxiety among women in the past couple decades might be partially due to the corresponding decline in women getting enough fat, particularly saturated fat from dairy.
Anyway, I'm trying to figure out who I am when I'm not strung like a triple-high C.
I still worry about things. We're moving in mid-October and I'm stressed about that. But there has to be something 1) real and 2) that I can/have to do something about. My brain no longer searches for stuff to be anxious over. I can get mad over politics and then put it aside. I see everything from a much calmer and more rational perspective.
I no longer feel guilt for living in the modern United States instead of Saudi Arabia or 14th century Europe. Yes, I realized these were utterly silly things to feel guilt over, but that didn't help. That's gone. Guilt in general over things that other people did or didn't do has disappeared entirely. And now, I'm able to focus on what I can do, which means I'm going to be able to do way more.
I still can't get over that this change came solely from drinking full-fat milk. While everyone is different in many ways, I do not think I'm some strange alien being with a 100% unique physiology among woman. And I do wonder if the studies showing a rise in anxiety among women in the past couple decades might be partially due to the corresponding decline in women getting enough fat, particularly saturated fat from dairy.
Anyway, I'm trying to figure out who I am when I'm not strung like a triple-high C.
