lliira: Fang from FF13 (Default)
If you want to talk to me about something that's not discussed in one of my posts, make a comment here and I'll probably create a new post for it.

This post was written January 14, 2012. I've post-dated it to 2032 to keep it on top.
lliira: (Callisto1)
The following exchange has happened way too often in my life:

Person (almost always a girl or woman): X is maybe being shitty and making me feel shitty and I've told them the problems and they won't change. *lists examples of X being incredibly terribly shitty to the nth degree* Are they actually being shitty or should I stop having any feelings at all, because I have been raised to believe I am disallowed from having feelings?

Me: X is being so shitty. SO shitty. Your feelings are more than justified.

Person: More about X being shitty, worry about having feelings/being "irrational".

Me: X is being shitty. You are more than justified in your feelings and are totally rational.

Person: Okay, but I should let X continue to be totally shitty toward me because I don't want to hurt their feelings.

Me: *looks up how to make an earthquake machine*
lliira: Fang from FF13 (Default)
 I'm starting to wonder if I'm having a recurrence of my recurring mono. I've been exhausted for the past week. I got over 14 hours of sleep last night and have still been exhausted all day, more than can usually be accounted for by my taking Flexeril last night. I've had this driving need to lie down, too, which happens when mono's flaring up. Also digestive troubles. Hopefully whatever this is is a passing thing, though, maybe a little bug, because I really don't want to be completely exhausted for the next three months.
lliira: (Okami)
 So I started playing Final Fantasy XIV and it's super fun. And wtf why does everyone on the server want me to join their guild tonight when I'm on a damage dealer. People are very friendly, haven't met a jerk yet, which is just... wow. I didn't know that could happen any more in MMORPGs. Maybe it's the complete lack of any general chat? Or the fact that there are lots of VERY good-looking male NPCs (and PCs), and that causes some kind of panic in the typical MMORPG jackasses? That it requires a subscription? I'm sure I'll run into jerks, but right now I'm kind of in shock that I've been playing 3 days or so without meeting one.

Also I'm going to start counting how many guild invites I get tonight. It's been at least 5 so far.
lliira: Fang from FF13 (Default)
 I did something in LibreOffice that makes each page hold almost 20,000 words. Um, how did I do that? How do I undo it? Anyone know? The paper format is still 8.5 X 11, the font size is 12... I do not know what is going on here.

ETA: Image under the cut. Scroll to the bottom to see the pertinent part, highlighted in pink.

ETA2: Never mind. It was in web layout somehow. Though I wonder why that made it 10 pages rather than one continuous page. Anyway, dunno how it happened, but it's fixed now and I feel silly. (501 pages. Wheee.)
Yes that's the proper wordcount )
lliira: Fang from FF13 (Default)

And I feel really weird about it. After around four years (I can't pinpoint it), I feel like I'm alive again. But I also feel like I haven't been here for most of the past four years. So I feel that this is my 34th birthday, not 38th -- I lost time. I can really identify with Commander Shepard :P.

lliira: Fang from FF13 (Default)
I'm reading some archives of a certain site and apparently someone attacked a comment I made in a seriously cruel fashion and got mod warned for it... but I never saw the comment because it was deleted. Now I am REALLY curious as to what they said. Still, good job on the mod's part, and it's nice that other people were also yelling at this person whose comment never upset me because I never even saw it. So curious though.
lliira: (Okami)
I got Rune Factory 4 yesterday. Holy shit. I thought it was weird for any game to have a solid 5-star rating on amazon, and I don't trust amazon reviews anyway, but in this case they're right.
lliira: (Quistis)
I'm fascinated by cults, cultish groups, and con artists. This means that, of course, I am fascinated by the saga of Andy Blake aka andythanfiction aka Jordan Wood aka Victoria Bitter aka Amy Player aka VoyagerBabe (I'm sure I'm missing a few akas). There's something I don't see talked about a lot when it comes to people like this: they tell transparent and simple lies.

Read more... )
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I only just saw this link today, and it boils everything down nicely: http://healthybdsm.tumblr.com/post/65666195806/in-the-bdsm-community-it-may-be-hard-to-tell-where ;

What it comes down to is this: a BDSM relationship is not, at its core, different from any other kind of relationship. Respect, give and take, and honesty are all necessary. Anyone who tries to tell you differently is lying about BDSM in order to abuse. That's what abusers do: they take good ideas (love, family, social justice, compassion, forgiveness, etc.) and turn them into poison.
lliira: Fang from FF13 (Default)
CN: Anita Blake book

This chapter is both extremely horrible and actually good. No kidding: there are some legitimately good bits here; not just "good for LKH", but good. I am confused and frustrated.

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Hi

Aug. 29th, 2014 06:04 pm
lliira: Fang from FF13 (Default)
I am going through a very weird time right now. My back is much better than it was and much better than the doctors told me it ever could be, and all because I had a depressive episode after moving and was therefore confined to bed for months. Which was against doctors' orders, and against a lot of new and fancy studies. They used to prescribe bed rest, now they prescribe surgery, I no longer trust anything they say. That extraordinarily painful surgery I got diminished my pain somewhat for a while, but nothing like bed rest did.

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Rooster?

Aug. 9th, 2014 04:41 pm
lliira: Fang from FF13 (Default)
Why is there a rooster hanging out with the ducks in the grassy/pond area behind our apartment? I guess he wants to be a duck? How did he even get over the fence? 
lliira: Fang from FF13 (Default)
I have finally gotten around to playing the Mass Effect games for the first time, and if EDM is the all-pervasive music of the future like it is in these games, I am glad I am not going to live to see it. Hear it. Whatever. Ugh.
lliira: Fang from FF13 (Default)
So I actually kinda hate Pharrell's song "Happy". "Hate" is too strong a term -- it's not "Having My Baby" or "Achy Breaky Heart". But it makes me not-happy. However, as usual, Weird Al does make me happy.


 
lliira: Fang from FF13 (Default)
One thing you don't get told in sex ed (even if you're lucky enough to have it) is that your period, and what happens around it, often change drastically over time. How long it is, how heavy, etc., but not just that. 

I used to not get PMS at all. Then I did, and everything was the most DRAMATIC THING EVER OMG for a couple days. That lasted through my twenties and into my early 30s. Then I started to get lightheadedness and occasional vertigo right before my period. Now that seems to have gone away, and now I get what's basically a mild cold with extreme thirst right before my period really gets going, which is something I'd never heard of anyone getting before. But I looked it up online, and apparently it's not that uncommon. I guess I prefer it to the DRAMAZ and feeling like I was going to fall over, but jeez. I am really looking forward to menopause.
lliira: Fang from FF13 (Default)
Watching This Is Spinal Tap was a good move. It snapped me out of the beginnings of what looked to be a self-hating spiral. However, I now have Spinal Tap songs in my head.

It could be worse: compared to most pop nowadays, Spinal Tap's songs are positively gentlemanly. Not to mention funny. But still.   
lliira: Fang from FF13 (Default)
-- Okay, I'm writing
-- I'm stuck
-- I can get past this
-- No, I'm really stuck
-- I can't do anything right and am useless and my life is over
-- Screw this, I'm watching This Is Spinal Tap
-- I have ideas again

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