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If you want to talk to me about something that's not discussed in one of my posts, make a comment here and I'll probably create a new post for it.

This post was written January 14, 2012. I've post-dated it to 2032 to keep it on top.
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Hi! I'm doing much better than when I last posted. I'm doing much better than when I FIRST posted. I'm back to who I used to be in a lot of ways, and that's someone some of you have never known so, uh yeah hi. It's been years. Because of this:

I finally got fully through kicking that (100% legal and pushed as the solution to my problems, the motherfuckers) shit last year.

Then the election came and I went kersplat for months. While Trump winning shook me, that wasn't what knocked me flat. When I saw the way so many people supposedly "on my side" reacted, I dove head-first into cracking the echo chamber I'd been stuck in wide open. I've never done well, emotionally, in echo chambers. Cliques give me a rash. I've always had friends who didn't like each other. So that helped.

But what finally pushed my head back up above water was getting more dietary fat, particularly dairy fat. I have not had this much energy since my 20s. Kind of a problem, since my body is still a wreck in many ways -- I can't even walk around the block without severe pain, let alone run around it. It's still great.
lliira: "The will to be stupid is a powerful force, but there are always alternatives." (Will to be stupid)
Yeah, I'm not updating this journal any more. If I post here again it'll likely just be book sporks and nothing else. I can't handle most stuff that smacks of politics online any longer, the constant misinformation everywhere has gotten to me (just because someone seems to agree with your politics that doesn't mean they're not heinous liars and abusers), along with the stark black-and-white thinking and sheer hatred on ALL sides that has gotten far worse in recent years.

Combination of burnout and a real change in online culture that I can't stomach. Also why I noped out of my Tumblr. I do have a Tumblr for my Sims still, pm me if you care to see it.
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I love all the people, of every conceivable place on the political spectrum, using the terrorist attacks in Paris to tell everyone how they were right all along and saying precisely what should be done right now on the world stage. And informing people how to feel, too, that they should feel guilty for feeling a certain way, or for not. It's just lovely timing, and I'm sure all of these people are experts in world politics, sociology, mass psychology, terrorism, violent cults, etc. 

All I know is that this is unbearable. And I'm terrified for the people in my family who live in Paris. I never dreamed I would be thinking maybe they would be safer if they moved back to New York.

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I have not felt like this since 9/11. My cousin lives in Paris. Thankfully she and her kids are out of town (and thank goodness for Facebook so she could let us know), but they have friends they haven't heard from. This can't keep happening.
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So... is anyone else well into their 30s, but with aunts that still call themselves by the nicknames gotten because of the way you mispronounced their names when you were a toddler? Though my aunt Alice doesn't call herself the nickname I unintentionally bestowed, but other people do. Whoops. But I have another aunt who signs her e-mails with the nickname 2-year-old-me bestowed. I don't mind, but it is rather bemusing, especially as they're not much older than me as aunts go.
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Tessa Dare, where have you been all my life? 

I'm worried, because when I start fangirling a romance author, I then read a book by her that's either 1) incredibly offensive 2) incredibly boring or 3) wildly anachronistic. I'm not a stickler for details, and I definitely don't expect Austenian language, but when you have characters in the 19th century with worldviews and ways of expressing them that make them sound like people on the internet in 2015, that throws me out of the book entirely.

But the Tessa Dare books I've read so far have all been funny, sexy, sweet, moving, well-imagined, and neither anachronistic nor overly historically accurate in a way that strangles the story. I adore them. I've only read three so far, the Castles Ever After series, but I have everything else she's published on order from the library. I'm buying the Castles series with birthday money, and with how broke I am, that means a ton. The only other book I've bought in the past year was by Lois McMaster Bujold. So, yeah, recommended.
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Well, not a review, just a recommendation. I never know how to write positive reviews without spoilers. But: Romancing the Duke by Tessa Dare. It's funny, sexy, and just generally really good. It ends up being kind of a love letter to the idea of fandom. 

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 Did you know mouth-to-mouth resuscitation was already known to be useful and was widely-used by the late 18th century, particularly for drowning, almost exactly the same way we use it now? I didn't, but I am really excited about it because I get to use it in what I'm writing now. Also: yay, internet! 
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(Spoilers below if you're Beroli, who is reading the same series I am but is a few books behind. Also, this is a post on which I've chosen not to put warnings.)

So I hate this book I’m reading. 

But I can't seem to put it down )
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I doubt I will care about anything today except the fact that Stephenie Meyer just released a gender-swapped AU of Twilight. Because WHAT.

I think she is going to pull it off and will change how the world thinks about gender roles in romance novels and yeah you know I'm bullshitting. The thing is, because of EL James, I do not seem to have any anger left toward Stephenie Meyer. So I find this very, very amusing. Also, as many people have already mentioned, I wonder how long until EL James writes a gender-swapped 50 Shades. A month maybe?
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If I want to be lectured about things I already know, I'll go to social media. Yeah, some anvils need to be dropped, but I'd rather they weren't on my head. I doubt the audience for these books needs these anvils anyway. This isn't what I read fiction for. I need more sugar with my medicine; and when it's medicine I don't need, it's all the more annoying. 
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It is interesting to me how religion-less almost all the historical romance novels I've been reading are. I don't mean the writers are atheists; I mean the characters seem to be. Except without ever thinking about it somehow. In 18th-19th century England. They agonize endlessly about social condemnation re: sex, but their own personal morality regarding sex and how it relates to religion never seems to cross their minds. "Hell" is only a meaningless swear word. It's... odd. The same way so much fantasy is odd, with writers attempting to write what they imagine our world was like in the 15th century or whatever, but minus religion. Though I find this far more aggravating in fantasy than in romance, as the focus is different.

(Btw, this is one reason I love Dragon Age. It grapples head-on with religion, rather than pretending a society like ours could have happened without it.)
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Just saw an article saying the concept of zero is younger than Jesus Christ. Said article also said Aristotle didn't believe in zero. The first, I could roll my eyes at and figure she'd been misinformed. The first paired with the second -- no. Also, this article is by someone attempting to be extremely deep. She Informs the Reader about Dante and Galileo later in the piece. (You know what I mean by Informs the Reader: it's opposed to Sharing With the Reader.)

I have no idea if Aristotle believed in zero, and I do not trust the internet to tell me the truth about this. I do believe, however, that I have just reached my limit. It's been coming for a long time, but now it's very much here. I am tired of trying to bail out the sea with a teaspoon. Maybe this is what middle age is. 
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Also: photos that are obviously post-1920 don't really count as evidence for the 1700s I think. Somehow. I don't care if the intent is good, when you pull shit like this you make everyone who can make a similar point with REAL evidence look less trustworthy.

I am going to be stewing about this all day at least.
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 People who get their ideas of Victorian society from the most shallow of sources...

And then apply said ideas to the 1700s...

I just want to scream and scream and scream forever.

(Or, in other words, I should probably ditch Tumblr. But... pretty pictures.)

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I cannot wait until the yearly exaltation of #$%#@! Thomas Jefferson is over.
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I have read Pride and Prejudice a zillion times, but only noticed something on this re-read:

Miss Anne de Bourgh is about Darcy's age. So, 28. I had for some reason remembered Lady Catherine saying "since SHE was in HER cradle we planned the match," but it's "since THEY were in THEIR cradles we planned the match." And Darcy has been destined for his cousin "from his earliest hours." I had thought before that Lady Catherine told herself that Darcy hadn't proposed to Anne because Anne had been too young, and that when Lady Catherine said "now, at the moment when the wishes of both sisters would be accomplished in their marriage" yada yada the "now" was because Anne had just turned twenty-one or something. Or even 25, and maybe she wouldn't be able to inherit Rosings if she married before then. But, no. She's Darcy's age. And I've never heard of 28 being the kind of age 21, 25, or even 30 have historically been treated as by law and culture.

Lady Catherine is certainly not rational about this, but I can't conceive of any way for her to be THIS deluded, or for that "now" to make sense. Unless Darcy was... at Oxford until he was 27? (Which would be a whole other kettle of weird.) Or maybe he was traveling Europe? 
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So I think I may have figured out what's been going on with me for years, the health problem that throwing out my back ended up distracting from. I haven't gone to the doctor yet, but I have almost all the symptoms of POTS (I haven't fainted yet, though it's been close, and I don't think my legs change color.) I've been bouncing around thinking maybe it's chronic fatigue, maybe it's some horrible neurological thing, maybe it's thyroid (this is still the second-highest possibility), but POTS fits best.

I'm just scared of going to the doctor again because all my experiences with them since throwing out my back have been terrible and caused me harm. Otoh it looks like drugs aren't necessarily recommended for POTS, since so many patients have more adverse reactions to drugs than the general population (hi me) so I'll dodge that fear if that's it. 
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I haven't read enough books with this exact issue to fully develop the theory yet, but...

It seems that a lot of books with Exceptional Woman Syndrome, Badass Variety, besides denigrating feminine women, have a very high number of male characters who are total cardboard cutouts. Their "personalities" consist of: hot and props up heroine. 

I guess lots of books starring Badass Men have female characters who are only hot and prop up the hero, so this is some sort of turnabout. But it's still damn boring either way. 

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